Sunday, July 30, 2017

A bad week

Sometimes you have a bad day, sometimes a bad week. A month and year also, but im still holding hopefull. And its a bad, bad ending for this week. Weakness takes over, i cant seem to move.
Keeping one hand above water and trying to catch something to pull myself up.

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

How to not relax on your day off

Half a day, to be more precise. (And gadamit now I'm stressing over the title). Aaaanyways! Got myself half a day off. I didn't have to cover a shift since on mondays a have class. But oh and behold! They actually respect long weekends at my class, so I got to stay home. After thinking for a week what I was going to do, some unexpected news made me re-think everything on Thursday. If you have anxiety and OCD, this can ruin everything. Basically because it will make you re-do your plans, and ends up with over thinking and stressing way waaaaay too much. Finally ended doing the bit of shopping I needed the day before, and took the last minute decision to go buy plants, which I've been wanting to do for over a month. I also decided to clean and make the most of the day; cook, clean, wash, exercise....And this is what happened. After eating and cleaning the dog area, I decided to do some gardening. By the time I was done, and this took only an hour, my legs hurt and I had already been over my to-do list so many times I felt exhausted. What this does to me is, basically, drain all my strength by just thinking to much, the same crap, over and over again. I end up doing nothing, and feeling tired. By the time I go to bed I'm drained and feel extremely guilty for not being able to finish everything I needed to do, and everything I wanted to do. I also tire of thinking I make up excuses, until I feel sore muscles and a headache for not letting anything go. I'm tired, even tho it was a little more relaxed week and weekend that the last 6 I've had.